Illusion

The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn’t exist. Maybe the greatest trick our all mighty God has ever pulled was convincing the world he did. I used to be a firm believer of religion and the biblical stories of Moses parting the seas, but I can’t help look in the mirror and see someone betrayed by this greater power. Someone who has worked so hard and sacrificed so much to find the smallest of returns. I have always been told that nice guys finish last but in my heart of hearts believed that to be untrue. I pondered over the fact that the men manning the back office were always my closest friends in the firm and the cable guys and maintenance officers were so easy for me to get along with. I figured this was a good thing and that the connection, or bond if you will, that I established with these people were a testament to the type of person I am.

I have now realized that the assholes of this world are the ones that succeed. My greatest idols are the bourgeoisies of our time and the ones that do not care for friends. They spend their days pawning through an endless sea of pussy, not concerned with the world around them and the people they hurt. Yet even knowing this I cannot muster myself to think like these “successful” people that roam our streets and fill the Trump buildings that only add to the ruins of a diminishing city. I continue in my ways, hoping that I will find success in ways other than monetary compensation. It would be nice to see rewards along the way but I will continue being patient. I will continue working hard and sacrificing for the ones I love, because life has slowly taught me that family is the only sure thing we have to hold on to. I am confident that I will never be a millionaire, a successful writer, or someone married to a perfect ten model like that of whom “E” somehow manages to bring to bed; but I am positive that I will always have a supportive and loving family that is willing to risk their friends and reputation for the perpetuity of my happiness. I have never looked a woman in the eye, and in complete vulnerability admitted to her my endless love, but if you ask me, a family willing to risk that much is a family smothered in love. I can only be thankful to have that in my life and hopefully the fire that fuels this love will never dwindle.

To all of my readers… God exists. If not in his ominous form, then he exists in all of our hearts. He represents the hope and optimism that there is something better out there for those who sacrifice for others. Perhaps everything does not happen for a reason, but it could just be better to believe it does. The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn’t exist. Maybe the greatest trick our all mighty God has ever pulled was convincing the world he did. Is that necessarily a bad thing or could it just so happen to be the bane of our existence?